It’s been a year since I cut off contact with my (now) ex-husband. August 9th of 2019 he told me he wanted a divorce. I spent the next 3 weeks crying, panicking, and not eating, as he’d told me I’d let myself go and he was no longer in love with me. There aren’t words for the amount of pain I’ve felt in the last year, emanating off of me like poisonous radiation. I am consumed by it.